LQ--As in Cold War between bana and me!

2006-10-21T20:43:00.000-07:00

Our 2nd wedding Anniversary was last Monday,October 16...I am thankful to the Lord above we've gone this far in our marriage and still going strong.
2 days after that,I was acting kinda weird..I have this "tulomanon" with him every night upon arriving home to just sit with him in our couch and watch a movie together but of course with that being said,it isn't complete without you know..hmm the happiness of a wife "kupay-kupay". I don't have to say it here literally coz I know that you know what I mean? hehe buang jud ko oi!

And that Wednesday night, I sat with him and started kupay,but he suddenly stood up and said a word that was kind of irritating as if he didn't want my kupay.I myself was very tired at that night because of working in the computer doing my daily routine like chatting,net surfing and literati and alot more whole day everyday.
.And so pa sensitive effect kunohay ko! I went to bed... pouting..balewala lang to niya kay patagad lagi kaau ko konuhay unya kay I was making it a big deal,I did not talk to him until the morning came,I cooked food for breakfast for us to share and when I was done in the kitchen I invited him para mangaon..

Shalan bas Manoy nga ni ingon man noon "No,thanks.I am not hungry" It was nicely said actually but he touched my ego.As in he refused to have breakfast with me. Ah nasuko napud ko! Wala pa baya ko ulii sa akong patagad last night nga wala ko niya pakupaya ay. So nisamot ko bungol niya. When it was time for him to go to work,he kissed me but I just ignored him as in no emotion nga makita sa akong face.

8 hours passed so fast abot na siya sa balay no kiss,I didn't even say Kiss ko bi? Instead I remained silent and treating him coldly. Hangtud nangatulog no kiss at all. Same happened the following morning..work napud siya wala na jud noon ni attempt ug kiss instead tan-aw lang naku kajut and ako sad as if I didn't know him nor seeing him near me.And so I cried all day for it hurts..

It deeply hurts me...for treating him the way I do to him,for being not able to receive his kisses and hugs..etc..and also for the fact that I am torturing him. Why it had to feel this way? the more I suppress the feelings the more I get hurt?

I burst out my emotions to my good and trusted friends online and so they advice me to talk with him..tinggan lagi kuno kay basin mangluod oh hala..I admit it,it was hard to say sorry because you know ang ego nato nga murag PRIDE BA? hehe..it was hard to start a conversation with the one whom you treated coldly especially bana pa jud nimo nga lalabs kaau nimo! Friday night,pag uli sa work niya,I couldn't hold the feelings anymore..I ran to him and gave him lotta kisses sabay say SORRY to him,with matching pinatulo sa luha ba nangatagak sa iyang abaga!

Nahilot jud pud perya buyag..I admire him very much coz bisan paman sa akong gibuhat niya wala jud siya nitukon baya. Tingog lang siya naku murag wala lay nahitabo.Pero who knows,deep inside of him nasakitan jud siya maayo. I said sorry because I knew I was torturing him,wala ko masayop,unsa iyang gitubag? EXTREMELY HURT kuno siya char kaayo manoy naku ay!

And now in good terms napud mi balik. Lessons I learned are: not to be child-like when I get tired and try to understand him that he works more than me and that he is more tired than me.Second is that,I would never want nga madaot iyang expectation sa ako nga GOOD WOMAN baya kuno ko para niya oi.Also basin na kuhaan na akong POGI POINTS or GOOD IMAGE niya hehe because of what I just did to him! Thirdly is that I am hurting him and myself as well.And it is I who suffered the most sa akong kalaki.

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LQ--As in Cold War between bana and me!